"You won't need your clothes for a long time Lois," You tell her as you bind her wrists with a makeshift double restraint and hooked it behind her hea... attaching them to a pulley that you rigged up earlier. Next came her legs which you spread apart and using a second pulley system you put each leg into a harness so that all you had to do was to pull on a rope and you can lift her legs off the bed leaving her feet dangling. You are now ready for the next step in your mother's reeducation.You sit. We did a lot ofresearch about hormones and implants. It meant that we ended up becomingexperts in the transgender, and transvestite scene. I had always been fedup with shaving, although I had a very light beard. I was very attractedby the idea of removing all my beard growth and signed up for treatmentstraight away.In the end I decided to give a limited hormone regime a try and westarted with the right mix for a limited trail. The effects weredisappointing at first because it gave me morning. It wasn't as if she was shy about her perfect body for last night she had performed quite happily in front of my top of the range digital video camera, no it was just some publicity ploy.How did this all start for me, well I was doing some post graduate work and in my spare time I was hacking away during the small hours trying to get in to all sorts of placed I shouldn't. It was an accident that I found that back door, one of my programmes had been running for some hours when it stopped at that. Genuinly nice. Also not me. Me, I’m out of place. Pretty much everywhere. And not many see this, simply because nobody really wants to think someone doesn’t have a place to fit into. Be polite, do not show how tired useless talk makes you, and you’ll find a response close to acceptance. It was, if you must know, at a funeral that this feeling crept up on me. Of my girlfriends stepmother’s cousin. I don’t think even she cared, how could I be expected to? She was expected to be here, and I, not.