I eventually went down to the sex shop and got a thick 10 inch dildo which I would shove up my virgin ass once a week or so and cum almost instantly. ...lthough I enjoyed the sensation of a cock inside me, it was not my preference, as I tend to prefer the dominant aspect of sexual interaction. So, I decided it was time to try the real thing. I put an ad on Craigslist, seeking a shaven twink to service me regularly in one of the unused bathrooms behind the dorms.I got a reply later that day, and. With a young woman who obviously knows this is a kink for me and I've paid her a few bucks to do this and in the back of a damn porn shop. So our $10 worth of porn has run out and its silent in our booth but hear the TVs of other patrons around us still blaring the perfect filthy kinky setting. Now that the TV is out, only playing a commercial time to time, its a bit darker. I ask her to bend over so I can get some shots of her booty, I start to slowly pull the pantyhose down for each shot. The sensations were like nothing else I'd ever felt in my life. I could squeeze my ass shut which would push him all the way out and then relax letting him advance a bit further into my bowels. I was suddenly very glad that it was Paul back there and not some ex linebacker or basketball star! After a few contractions I felt my body give way and he sunk slowly into me until every inch was in my ass. "Ooof," I exhaled through tight lips."Are you ok?" Paul held perfectly still."Yes, it just feels. I can't."I could hear the tremble in his voice even though it had only been ever so slight. I opened my mouth to ask why he couldn't, but I already knew why, so what was the use? I had to decide what I wanted more. To either be with Joey and Suzi or... not.Suddenly the very concept of not being around either of them for long periods of time upset me immensely. To go without Suzi's council, to live without Joey's camaraderie, to return to the life I had before Christmas break... "I want to.