." Oh, thanks. But...I don't know much about sex. My mom was always afraid to teach me about it. I'm not entirely sure what it is."I was shocked. An 1... year old Gothic girl who didn't know about sex? This was so weird...and hot. I decided to show her that night. I started by pulling her clothes off slowly, then, once she was sitting next to me naked, I pulled off my own clothes."Now, I'll show you what to do. First, you're going to work on me. You can either...uhm...grab my penis, or suck on. At first nothing indicated that wild stuff would happen. We were going together on the beach and all the regular stuff, At one point she started getting a bit flirty with me. At first, I didn't think much of it, but now I'm quite sure that they might have planed this before.After the beach we came back at the apartment and made the plan to go out in the evening for few drinks.She said she will go to the shower first and then I can take my turn, so we can get ready for the night out.After the. If anything I got horrible nightmares. Every night I see the live face of the person I killed and then I see their face in death. There were so many, so many. War is like that. You kill because you have to kill, so you will be able to kill again.Even before then I was a horrible person. As a child I stole things, I hit people, I lied and cheated. Now I was not always that way. As a very young child I was told I was pretty sweet and the family and neighbors loved me. Somewhere along the line I. I didn't mess up any of the hard work that went in to putting on my makeup and doing my hair. Now the finishing touch, a couple dabs on my wrist of my very expensive very special occasion perfume, couple dabs on my neck and I was done. I stood there and gave myself a once over in the mirror. And this was the first time in a long time I thought to myself that I was hot stuff. Not in a conceded way, but in a moral booster way. I for the first time in a long time, liked the person that was looking.