He lured me inside and half an hour later when I left, I was no longer a virgin. Bahdur had raped me, ' Shama replied and started to cry.'Stop crying ...nd tell me what happened next, ' I said, brusquely.'Few days later, Bahadur accosted me in the bazaar and asked me to go home with him, ' she continued.'Nahin (No), ' I told him, 'tu mujhe phir chodega (you will fuck me again).''Why not? You yourself said it was nice, ' Bahadur replied.'Yes I did but I don't want to get pregnant, ' I told him.'I. Actually, I was just thinking I was strangely comfortable," I answered with a slight smile, "but how are you feeling this morning?" A lot happier than I have for a very long time," she said seriously. "I can't remember the last time I slept so well. Do we need to get up?" No rush. We're not on a schedule. Sometimes we may need to move at a particular time in order to catch a tide. We could go now, to head up the Orwell to Ipswich, or the Stour to Mistley, or we could wait until high water to. Now that I know what I want, how do I go about getting it?Well, I could just be a slut and walk into his room naked. You know, "How about a fuck, big brother?"That's a bit much, though, I bet Kevin would love it.Okay, what else? Well, maybe a sex-talk with Kevin, you know, have you ever done it? What was it like? Is it really as good as people say? Maybe something like that. Go from there. Yeah, that might work.So, the next afternoon, Kevin is at the kitchen table eating a sandwich. I sit down. When I was a stupid kid, I thought that love was finite. I was worried that my 100% love for Trisha would drop to 50% for her and 50% for the baby. Instead it turned into 100% for her and 100% for the baby. Love grows.”Love grows!I went home that night and when Kristy got home from school, I told her to get dressed up, I was taking her to dinner. She looked like she was on her way to death row. Her last meal. We maintained our now normal silence as we showered, separately, and dressed. She.