We stood there waving to the passing car and every now and then Jane would yell out, “Want a date.” Some times it was necessary to walk back up t...e side street when we spotted a police car coming down the road.Several cars slowed to check us out and finally one car made a second and third run by us and turned on to the side street and stopped. As we walked to the car the passenger side window was lowered. Jane leaned over and said to the black driver, “Looking for a date handsome?”“Depends,. “I want Mikey to give me and Emmy a ride to the pool tomorrow!”I suppressed a groan and the impulse to throw my glass at my little sister. This was the one sore point between Mom and me. If I was going somewhere, and Liz wanted to go to the same place, I was given no option other than to drive her. I was meeting Dale and Jocelyn at the public pool after church. The last thing I wanted was my little sister tagging along.“Mike, will you please give your sister and her friend a ride?” Mom. ” She smiled at me and left the room.The next night during supper dad told us that my mom and him were going away Friday afternoon for the weekend which was only 2 days away.Come Friday I picked Mia up after work and we went to a burger joint for supper before we went home. Went we got home we both headed for the shower, Mia decide to use the fancy rain type shower in our parents room. I heard her turn on the water and I undressed and decide to join her. I opened the shower door and got into. It felt degrading and naughty, yet it fulfilled some need I didn’t know I had, some identity that had been kept secret from myself. This part was very liberating and exciting. Nonetheless, when I took out or answered an ad, I felt adrenalized, even shaking. Why did I force myself to do this? If they responded, I was excited, yet terrified. If they didn’t, I felt disappointed and discouraged, but relieved. If I accepted, I would think about it all day, with a knot in my stomach. Yet, when it.