When I asked if she was okaymy gorgeous forty year old wife looked at me and said, "Honey, I'm serious. I've been thinking about it for months now and...have been looking at dating sites for a while." In shock, I asked her why, to which she explained that she already had a short list of three guys she liked and that they were cool with our situation. With that she picked up her iPad and logged on to show me their profiles. I quickly got over the shock and as we looked I asked her if she planned. If I drank often enough, I’d become and alcoholic. If I did try cocaine or heroine, I’d probably be hooked. I’ve cheated so much and lied so much about it that I can’t stop lying. Even while I’m doing it, I think to myself that I want to STOP, and I can’t even stop because I’m so mired down in it all that I couldn’t climb back up, no matter how much I want to. I’m spontaneous to the extreme, and that makes it all worse. I know where to go to get what I want, but if I can’t get it there, I keep. Have you ever fantasized about a person of the opposite sex? Yes17. Do you have any sexually transmitted diseases? No18. Have you ever had unprotected sex? Yes19. Do you have any fetishes - including foot fetishes? Cuckold, SPH, BDSM20. How important is sex to you? Very21. How old were you when you first kissed? 1622. Are you a virgin? If not, how old were you when you lost your virginity? No, 1623. Who did you lose your virginity to? What was the experience like? First GF, it was a relief, but. She would be ably assisted by her sisters. From my experience with them, they enjoyed using me as a toy more than Mei Ling did. She controlled me, which allowed them to do anything they wanted, or make me do anything they wanted.I dried myself and got into the single bed. My five foot six and half stone frame fitted it easily with plenty of room to spare. I thought of Paul Parkin my former self would have been bent double.Sleep came easy, I was exhausted as I was every night. I somehow thought.