It's built out of a lot of things, but if you pound it enough, it just can't be sustained. Like you. If you still loved me deeply after all the shit I...piled on you, I'd probably have no respect for you. Even if I showed complete contrition, you'd, I don't know, either have to feel you deserved to be treated badly or were completely unlovable except by me, or for some other pathological reason needed to be with me. It would be sick. Obviously, that's not the case. You've got Karen, who, I've got. Kinda ... sorta ... yesterday," commented Chione."I heard." said She/It/He/Whatever. "Vickie's really loud." Whatever directed a comment at Jo, "You are, too. I never met lab rats who enjoyed the reproductive process more. You guys go nuts. The directors will really enjoy the holo's from yesterday."Chione began singing, "I'm a porn star. I'm a porn star." She grinned."Uh, shit!" commented Jo."How about you let us explore with it while you collect the rest of the rats," suggested the Cheese."Too. My description of what the shopping experience was like got me laughed at even more.Mom said, "I'm looking forward to seeing you in those clothes." Of course she was, if only so she could laugh at me EVEN more."I'm wearing one of the outfits to school tomorrow, and possibly the other on Friday although that's doubtful, so you'll see at least one of them in the morning. Carol and I will be staying here tonight, and by the sounds of it I'll probably be here tomorrow night too, I think, but you'll. I would never do it but I have to be honest and say it crossed my mind.I tried calling her all weekend but my calls went unanswered. I figured I would wait a few days before trying again. On Monday, I went to work but my heart really wasn't into it. I gave out work assignments and went to the lounge to get drunk. After a few drinks, I figured that wouldn't solve my problems. I just took a long drive and ended up at the airport. I sat there and thought for a while, watching all the planes take.