It is yours. I am your slave, remember?”“If you do go to the honky tonk, you will be humiliated. Everyone there will know you are a wild slut. Is ...hat what you want?”“Of course not. But, I must obey what you say. So, if you say I must, I must.”Interesting, isn’t it? They were right. But, why? Was she afraid to admit what she wanted? Or, was she unsure of it herself? Was it a fantasy she loved down deep in her psyche but was afraid to live? Was it simply fear of unknown men having her, of the. The connection you have with them will continue for the rest of your lives, I hope. I pray each day that you are strong and as loving as I and your mother and Erin Mom are. I still don’t know whether you or Erin Moms babies are boys or girls. I guess I like little surprises like that. I love you with all my heart and I can’t wait to meet you in another couple of months. Good night.” I kissed Lynn’s warm pinkness.“Paul, I know that we have talked about our dreams with the babies, but you don’t.. He asked me to suck his, I really didn’t know how to do it, he got terribly upset, his expression was of disbelief and frustrated, I was helpless, he stripped me and went on missionary, the act was very painful, but he didn’t seem to care much, he was ramming up like a beast, after he completed, I was almost done with life, I somehow go to sense.I was pregnant within 3 months, and had a wonderful kid, for pregnancy I stayed in my mother’s house for a year, by this time, I could see Ravath. But that's just what he says whenever I tell him I'm not ready for sex. Claire though knew the truth. She was the only one that did. It wasn't that I wasn't ready, I was just, a little inexperienced and worried about not liking the things he would probably like. “You need a test dummy.” she told me. “A what?” I asked. She laughed, “A test dummy. To try things out on, you know, blow jobs for example. Some girls hate doing them, but some love doing them. You don't wanna start your first blow job.