In a way, it was good to get it out, and see if you really liked...D. She starts to talk to Sydney, first about the aerobics, later about programming,...and finally about relationships...E. She talks from her male and female side; Sydney listens and contributes as two girlfriends would... Somehow, this is easier --- why can't I talk to a girl as a male like this???F. Sydney says "Be yourself... you have a wonderful way of being with people, go with the topics you like and the order you like...". She didn't do anything ... no! Don't think like that. Get to the house, David.There was a rifle stuck in the dirt under the balcony ... I left it. Crime scene, don't touch anything, just wait. I fell asleep sitting on the steps.The fog was swirling, there were faces in the mist ... one by one the faces grew a third eye in the middle of the forehead ... it was extremely slow ... I could see the bullet moving toward the face. A shadow of the bullet formed ... grew smaller ... the tip of the. Then heasked me who I fantasized about and I told him you. He suggested Idress differently and maybe seduce you. So I did.” “I am surprised and flattered….Does he know?” “No… not yet… when I came down last night after we were done, heseemed to be having second thoughts so I lied and told him nothing hadhappened. I hated lying but I don’t want to hurt him ever. I do love myhusband.. but damnit he started this, he got me interested in. We didn't speak on the way home but when we got in, he said simply, "As of now, we're partners, not master and servant. We help each other." I wasn't sure quite what that entailed but nodded as though I agreed.Terry Shaunessy came early evening time and we went through the whole story with him. He listened to the story with all of us together and then spoke to Ernie, on his own and then Eric, and finally to me. For a while he quietly probed my life and my attitude to mother and how I felt now..