I cannot and will not break them. They are the strongest I can make. I fully intend to die rather than break them. Mark may cancel them whenever he wi...hes, as that is his right as my Lord, but I may never do that myself. I am offering Mark all of my life, I am holding nothing back. All my worldly goods are his, everything that I am is his, and all my time is his - all to do with as he wishes. -- "Mark may also accept my Vows without my Gift. I will still be bound by my Vows even if he does not. I tried to act as if all was normal but it still hurt months later. At first after Claire left I would find that at times while having sex with the women that I was dating I would imagine that it was Claire that I was having sex with. But over time that ended and I also quit regretting what might have been. The next two years went by mostly uneventful concerning the other girls that came into my house. There were a couple of girls that seemed interested in me sexually during that time but they. "Turn it off. I don't want to be on camera," she yelled quickly turning around away from the camera. She looked so incredibly hot wearing her shorts and just a t-shirt. "You look great. Why don't you get up and dance for me?" while standing up and getting in front of her. My heart raced hoping she would suddenly perform a strip tease for me. I had fantasized about cumming on my wife’s face, I had fantasized about fucking her ass, and I had fantasized about wanting to video tape her doing it. Orgasms, I don't know, but I know it was great! Oh God, it wasfantastic! It was so fucking beautiful! God I want to kill him! You hear measshole? I wanted to kill your dumb ass and I loved it! I fucking loved it!" Loren cowed back towards the entrance to the sunroom. He was shaking in fearand sobbing like a baby! His face was covered with blood and his left eye wasbeginning to swell shut as the color of his skin turned into bruised and woundedflesh! "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" He mumbled. "Oh.