These are often ideas we pick up from school, family, or religion. Sometimes experiencing a traumatic event can cause feelings of shame as well. Contr...ry to these negative messages, pleasure is a normal part of life.Lack of familiarity with self pleasure: Not many people learn or think about sexual pleasure as part of sexual health. This can mean that some people don’t talk about pleasure in general or self pleasue specifically, don’t get to ask questions about it, or don’t learn to think about. You saw inside me better than anyone else could. You said you saw things inside me that you wished you could claim. You saw beauty, charm, brilliance, compassion, loveliness within the twisted sinews and stilted veins that operated by my own erratic heartbeat. I had never seen myself as beautiful, charming, brilliant or compassionate, and I could only confirm that I was a loving person because I loved you. I had always lived with myself as an uncomfortable tenant, acting on impulse, trying to. Now, on the floor," I said, pointing in front of me. He moved slowly, unsure of himself, but somehow knowing what was about to happen. He settled back on his knees, folding his hands in his lap as he looked up at me, tears still falling from his eyes. Leaning back in the chair, I spread my legs, making room for him as I pointed to my crotch."Get to work."He looked at me for a moment, as if not quite understanding what I meant, but as he looked at the front of my jeans, the telltale bulge. Waiting a bit longer made no difference to him just to have her here was more than enough for the moment. Mara's eyes suddenly snapped up as she felt a set of eyes on her. Looking toward Greeson she saw that he was intensely watching her. For some strange reason this gave her an extremely warm feeling all over her body. Standing up she moved toward Greeson as he suddenly flipped up into a standing position. "Sorry you had to wait," Mara said as soon as she reached Greeson. "I thought I would.