"Perfect" I thought, getting onto the bed and making myself comfortable. It looked like I might be reading for awhile.--------------------I spent the ...ext two hours, sitting on the bed and reading through the diary. It was filled with a lot of meaningless ramblings and gossip about various friends, boyfriends and potential boyfriends, but it also contained a lot of very useful information.For one, I learned that the blonde girl I'd seen so many pictures of was named Tammy Simms, and was. Ilooked down at myself and hated what I saw.How could he love me? I was out of shape, I was ugly, and worst of all,I was male. Oh, my, take a breath dear, you almost choked. Yes, I wasmale, hun. Well thank you for the compliment. So, do you want me tocontinue?Ok dear, so there I was, hopelessly in love with another man. He camenear me, took my glass away, and I could not stop trembling. He leanedin close, and I think I would have died and gone to heaven if he hadkissed me. But he asked me what. It was all arranged. I told my spouse to cancel all his plans because I had a surprise for him that Saturday. I woke up and of corse he was gone that stupid prick I decided to wear my smallest skirt but it wasn't small at all so I raided my daughter's closest. She had this small black leather mini skirt I know cliche. I squeezed it on and decided to go with nothing under it. The leather was tight around my plump ass and I can say made me look and feel good. I put on a white tank top with no bra. . a part of you. Until you let me in, I just don't think this is going to work."Denise picked at her salad, suddenly not hungry. "Are you breaking up with me," she asked quietly."Denise, there's nothing to break up. We've gone out a few times, had a few laughs, but I don't see that as being any thing more than friendship. We're dating, not exclusively either. It's not that I don't want to spend time with you, but... we'd have to be a lot more forthcoming with each other to go to that other.