The panic starts to push through and her brain starts waking up.She touches between her thighs and adrenaline shoots through her system. It's sensitiv... but more worrisome, like her eyes, gooey and crusty. She takes a deep breath and tries to piece together the night before she starts blindly feeling around the room.Although she was only 18 and in her last year of high school her brother, Steve, had asked her to come out to visit him at University. He insisted that Marie bring along her best. "It was already starting to make sense to me. I could feel myself wanting this. Wanting to be a hero, and just maybe, a super-hero. The suit seemed capable of making me one, if I could master the complexity of it; if I had the brains to use it effectively.If I had what it takes to stand and fight.Saturday alternated between studying Trey Young's notes, and climbing over, in, and around the suit. The climbing in part was very interesting."Trey and I never discussed whether the suit was capable. " Oh yeah, I believe you!" Sandy said giving me a playful swat. "Even though James is a bit immature, I'm sure Tracy and I could have a wonderful time with him." Sandy paused for a moment. "When are we going to tell Cassie?" Let's go up to the pond this afternoon and we'll tell her on the way back.After a quiet morning and a light lunch I suggested to Cassie that we go up to the pond. "We can have a swim and... ?" I grinned as I paused."Oh yeah, let's go!" Cassie said and we gather up what we. I saw them in school. That was one of the real demons that haunted Derry.I knew I had to confront all of this. It was more than the confusion. It was more than the depression. It was more than the anxiety. I was broken, and no one could fix me. I stared at the bridge and made up my mind what I was going to do.Over the following weeks, people were excitedly talking about graduation that was now only two and a half months away. I went about enacting my plan in secret. I had already turned.