I certainly didn’t understand all the nuts and bolts of their existence because my expertise ended with a good knowledge of how to make love with th...m. But warmer weather made it seem less important for me to know the deep secrets about them. I just accepted the way they were and they me, although I sensed they always knew every detail about me already. Of course they did. They had entirely changed me physically both inside and out of my body.The feeling of being totally accepted without. It wasn't until I washalf way to the piercing salon that I noticed that no onenoticed. If it wasn't for the fact that I was dressed as afrench maid, I could have passed. All I got were some catcallsfrom men and a few wondering stares from women.Since I had a fairly high voice to begin with, I'm sure thatRoxann noticed from playing that I could sound female if Ireally put my mind to it. Well, I really put my mind to it, andtold the girl I wanted the earrings in the box I removed from mypurse put. I recognized the driver just before he turned and saw me. “Belle is safe,” I said.“Oh, thank God,” he exclaimed emotionally.“She wanted to stay with her sister and my family agreed that she could. She’ll be well taken care of,” I promised. “You can write to both girls care of Lewis Clark at Fort John. We’re there often enough selling them goods that they’ll hold the letter for us. The girls plan to write to you in Fort Vancouver next spring.“Thank you,” he said tearfully. “We were torn up about. This literally tipped me overthe top and I came very heavily myself in time with all the men aroundme.I awoke in a sticky mess.I tried to reason with what had happened in my dream, but I decided itwas due to all the trauma I had been through. I didn't really thinkanything fundamental had changed because of that dream.I went through the same routine for the rest of the evenings that weekand soon Saturday came around. I knew the routine that was expected andI shaved very carefully and prepared.