Now, as I said before, it wasn't a big RV, mostly a kitchenette, shower and a bedroom just large enough for a queen sized bed.. Once inside I grabbed ... couple of beers from the small refrigerator and handed her one before going around closing the blinds and the privacy curtain. Coming back to her I extended my hand again, "by the way, my name is Tom and I'm sorry that you got dragged into this." It ain't no big thing", she replied, "besides, it was kinda cool to see someone hand Jimmy his ass. I guess you could say that I'm being used. But I don't know if that's true either. See, the way I see it, I'm using them. The fact that they'll survive and I won't is beside the point. You see, I want to die. Yep, it's true. I want to die. I have no reason to go on living and no one will miss me.My foster parents? Yeah right. They'll be happy I'm not eating everything in sight, and they'll probably hope that no one at DCFS catches on so they can keep cashing the check I generate every month.. .satisfying to mess with minds and emotions on a deeper level. Therefore, I am going to corrupt your mind first, just a little, a slight molding to make you someone that wants to dominate all women. And I do mean all. Because your first major target will be Ivy. She should be the easiest in terms of non-civilians, and for the most part you will have little to no interest in converting civilians anyway. And her pheromones can work very very well with the gift I have bestowed upon you. And with. I cry when I think about how much Jake loves and cares for me.I can't understand my parents. I thought they loved me. I have always been their "baby girl" and now I am nothing to them. Most times they won't even speak when they see me. I think it is because of the minister they have at the church. I hate Mrs. Hanson too, for she blames me for everything. Maybe I should feel a little guilty. I prevented Jake from pulling out, but there are some things you just can't do. Mr. Hanson has been a.