An extension of self that I needed, but now I think I felt that way because it wasnt Ok for me to want things. Like, I only ever deserved what I neede.... Not anymore. Almost overnight I feel — quite comfortably — that its totally fine for me to want things. And absolutly to be expected that I should get what I want. Speaking of things I want, Hayden (god his name is so fucking stupid I hate to even write it) finally came back to work today after being gone for three days. I dont flatter myself. I stood in the rain shower letting the hot water cascade against my body, closing my eyes I raised my chin to feel the water splash on face. Jane had treated me to some expensive body gels and shampoo to use in the shower, very fragrant they claimed not only to clean but leave you invigorated and stress free, an ideal opportunity to use them. As I lathered up my body I complemented myself on how firm my body was, with no trace of excess fat, clearly the running was paying off. Again I stood. That’s normally the calls for help I answer anyways. The people who turn to gods aren’t as fun, so I leave those to my siblings, but I’m not sure they answer them either.”“But anyways enough about me, let’s talk about you. I’ve seen you and many others reading those choose your own adventure stories. They’ve piqued my interest but I was curious how people would play them if the person you were reading about was actually real and under your control. So I spent some time watching everyone playing. Remember, this heat means I’m home.’ She was already drowsing when he left. It was easy in Arab Street to have a shave and a massage before going to the tailor’s for a fitting. Dressed in the new clothes, Peter looked in the mirror to see a well-dressed almost handsome, tall, muscular Australian male. From there he returned to Ashi’s to check the sari had left and to see if his order from the jeweller had arrived. It seemed to take forever to get back to Raffles in the traffic and to start.