I sure as hell wasn’t.We got a short reprieve when the other couple went a second time. Crazy people! When it was finally our turn and we had to wal... over to the swing contraption, I could barely walk on my shaking knees. Even Tanya acted nervous the way she was gripping my hand. I guess there’s nothing to unite two people like death-defying stunts. At least I was hoping for the ‘defying’ part.I couldn’t believe I had gotten myself into this when they started attaching the cables to our. The 'Family', therefore, was to be founded, exclusively, on his offspring, not mine, nor any of the other husbands who's wives had pledged their sexual fidelity to Brother Dexter as mine had in joining.Rather than having no sexual outlet ourselves, Brother Dexter had instituted a practice for us to engage in whenever we felt the need for sexual release. It was referred to as 'libation practice.' This has been mentioned before. But I'd like to explain how I feel about it, and how it has been. .. Yes, yes, almost there. I wanted it so badly. Then snick, snick! The crop clipped each nipple, almost like a bee sting. I almost screamed from the shock. Once again searing pain. Right on the edge. An orgasm denied.This went on and on. Strikes, soft and gentle to powerful and swift, even to my clit. Those were the worst. It felt like every nerve in my body was on fire and shrieking. I wasn’t sobbing out loud, even though that’s what it seemed he was trying to drive me to. Tears were running. " What would you have me do?" said Fernand."How do I know? Is it my affair? I am not in love with Mademoiselle Mercedes; but for you--in the words of the gospel, seek, and you shall find." I have found already." What?" I would stab the man, but the woman told me that if any misfortune happened to her betrothed, she would kill herself." Pooh! Women say those things, but never do them." You do not know Mercedes; what she threatens she will do." Idiot!" muttered Danglars; "whether she kill herself.