I didn't sleep well that night thinking about what had just happened. Again, nothing happened for a few weeks after the call. I begin to think and was...relieved that probably M was not interested in me. Then suddenly out of the blue I received a call from M one afternoon at the office. M said: "Let's have dinner tomorrow night.", It was an order it was not a question! I wanted to say no but found myself saying yes, I was furious with myself that I was unable to break from the spell that M had. Then I looked at my mom. She was staring at the ceiling, her hands partially covering her breasts.I was seeing my mom’s nude body in my imagination while jerking. Ten minutes went by. In the pleasure I was giving myself, my eyes were closed.I speeded up the jerking I knew I was about to cum. And I cummed finally shooting a jet of my semen upwards. I was exhausted. And from the corner of my eyes, I could see that my mom was startled suddenly. At first, I did not know why. Then I realized that. I was intensely aroused at this girl, this woman, this slut?s denialof all white cocks, and her denial of my cock. I was so horny that the ideabegan to appeal to me; I began to embrace the denial as a source of sexualarousal and as a form of sex itself. It was ok that I wouldn?t be allowed tofuck her. It was ok that I wouldn?t get a blowjob. I didn?t stop wanting thosethings, but the sexual high I felt while not receiving them was somethingamazing, something intoxicating: a chemical delivery. It felt incredible as it entered me. My back arched, my bronze tanned naked breasts jutting up into the air. The groan that burst from me would have put any animals in the area in heat. At that moment my world narrowed to the feeling of that rod of flesh splitting me. My lips parting and then being filled with the most intense ecstasy overwhelming me.He moved slowly at first in and out. I fought to keep my eyes from rolling back in my head wanting to watch this young stud's face as he fucked.