I put on a sort of 'happy indifference' — I even helped Jim plan his Christmas present outing for Su ... Oh, God...I loved him.But I loved him too m...ch to have him just because ... I don't know, because he pitied me? Because he felt he owed me something? I wanted to be sure he loved me.When Su died, I mourned my friend. But it was much worse watching Jim come apart. I watched him functioning like an automaton, going through the motions of living. I sat with him, walked with him and tried to. "Marie, Alana I'll be right back," said Seth as he started for the door."Oh, I'll walk you out Seth. Be right there," said Alana as she turned and reached for Marie's hand.Nodding, Seth disappeared out the door as he saw Alana shake Marie's hand."Bitch I won't let you have him. Too many of us here in the city have put in far more time with him than you and have a greater claim to him. We won't let some no class low bred country bumpkin newcomer suddenly appear and think that all she has to do. He always has things to do and things to attend. I am often left alone, and it makes me miss Earth, wherever it is now. I sigh and take my shower, putting on the clothes that Wayne had laid out for me. I look out the window and look at the dark sky that never seems to change no matter how long I stare. I sigh, sad that I can no longer enjoy the sun and regretting that I took it for granted when I still had it. "Why so sad, beautiful Amy?" a voice speaks out from behind me. I gasp and turn. 'CO2, please change Ginny back to the way she was before I had you change her the last time. We need to go back to the way it was before I agreed to let you decide how to do the things that I want.'< Frank, don't you realize all these trust issues you keep having are counter productive? How will your life or hers be improved if you go back to the situation that made you unhappy, sad and angry? >'I know, but as bad as that was, at least Ginny was free to be who she really is. Who am I to decide.