You survived John and you think the worst is over. You ain't seen nothing yet. We ain't even warmed up. You are going to do things this week that you ...ever imagined, things you didn't even know people would do to a woman."Open your mouth and stick out your tongue."I knew what that meant and my stomach turned over at the thought of it. But there was no way I was going to refuse these men. Not while they had those cattle prods. Not while Mac was tied up and they were beating him and cutting. I cuddled with him and to this day, it has always been non-sexual, non-perverted - a line was never crossed.He always had pajamas on and always made me feel safe. If he touched me occasionally, it was to rub the back of my head. I loved my dad. Unfortunately, after a couple of days I was afraid to go to sleep by myself.At seemingly the same time, my father started to encourage me sleeping in my room again. He was never mean - never laid a finger on me - but ultimately through his drinking at. He knocked on the wardrobe door and waited, the door slowly opened and he found himself looking at his dark haired cousin, she was dressed in just her underwear and looked surprised to see him kneeling in her wardrobe."How did you get in there?" She asked as she moved aside to allow him to climb out."There's a false back to our wardrobes that allows you to crawl from one to the other." I guess that is why you, Elizabeth and Rebecca where so good at hide and seek when we were younger."Jonathan. Letgo of yourself. Tell yourself you are letting go,sinking deeper and deeper into relaxation.” She continued, her voice a gentle breeze, as I slowlyrepeated to myself that I was indeed letting go, that Iwas indeed sinking deeper. Deeper. “You may relax even more deeply on the bed, Beth. Youhave dreamed about the bed before, how warm it is, howcomfortable. How soft the sheets feel against yourskin. You can feel that, Beth. Feel it. Very slowly,very gently, I will help you. Allow.