In Barbara’s case I had to push her a little bit.’ Barb jumped in here: ‘She didn’t have to push too hard. When Matt was getting out of his ca... I already knew he was someone special because he had a magnificent aura but I had absolutely no feelings of sexual attraction. The funny thing is that I had not been viewing myself in sexual terms. My higher self did not seem to be either male or female, it just was. I considered myself and still consider that to be my real self. In some ways I was. They boarded her as owners for the first time on Halloween."It's a good date." John said, dropping his duffel bag on the king-sized bed of the forward stateroom. "An auspicious date."In his Merchant Marine uniform, John looked every bit the seasoned sailor. Jim slipped his arms around John's waist and kissed him deeply."They're right, y'know." Jim said when they finally parted. "There is something about a man in uniform." Funny," John grinned at his old friend. "I was thinking there was. Rosa's eyes, on the other hand, were a sight to behold, radiant and excited, and the obscene smile she wore on her face revealed more of a woman's secrets than ten thousand novels could."Davy," she said after a minute or two had elapsed, "be a darling and run into the bathroom and fetch us a damp washcloth. I'll clean us off."He had been staring at her, and continued to do so."You do want to do it again, don't you?" She asked."You better know it, Mrs. T." I think that when we're alone you can. Regardless of the size of the paper, it was a great stepping stone. I'll never forget the man who helped me deal with all the changes I was going through.I had wondered if Blaise was gay from the first time we met. But, sometimes you couldn't be sure. Several years older than me, in the first few weeks he took a special interest in me. When I thought about it too hard, I wondered if that might mean something. But, I always banished that speculation, choosing to see the best in the situation. I.