I'm snapped out of a bit of dream by another phone call, the courtesy lights going on in the car, as the ignition is turned off, and 2 people getting ...ut of cars on the opposite side, now I'm getting REALLY nervous!The driver then turns round to me, and with a wry gin he says: "Okay, I want you to get out, and walk in front to the side of that tanker in front of us" his friend then said "I'll follow you in a minute" as I'm getting my stuff together, I'm asked to hurry up, and his friend says. I grabbed a sweatshirt and jeans. Shit- my hair! I rammed a baseball cap on my head and tucked my girly curlsunder it. A pair of sunglasses completed my outfit in case I hadn't gotall my make-up off last night. Wait - my painted toenails! I steppedinto a pair of sneakers. Luckily I had removed the polish on myfingernails before going in the shower. It had been chipped and I wasplanning to renew it.I made my way downstairs trying to listen in. I caught snatches of theconversation."...no. As far as I know my parents are OK, mymother occasionally sends letters, whenever my dad is away, letting meknow how things are. She still though calls me by my birth name, it'slike I'm playing a part in a play and that all this isn't real to her.There's nothing I can do to change her view of things, but I know thatshe will always love me, just not who I have become. But I haven't seeneither of them since that night and to be honest I really don't knowwhat I would say to them now anyway.I ended. "What time are you expected at Fallingbostel?" she asked Frances."About five, I imagine. Mark's merely given us orders to be ready to move after lunch." So what are you going to do for two and a half hours?" Mark will have thought of something," said Victoria defensively."Of course he will. That's what he's paid to do. I'll bet it'll be pretty boring. Male minds lack imagination."Frances and Victoria laughed."Poor darling," said Frances. "He hasn't done badly but we are a bit bored with.