A look he knew well enough meant I was cross. Even before I spanked him he knew that look. Dave saw the look, froze, and spluttered, “Well, Ben, erm... maybe it is late and you better split?” Ben gave me another funny look, but as the game had finished anyway and he probably didn’t fancy an argument he looked back at Dave and said, “OK Dave, maybe I better get going.” Dave and Ben got up and went in to the hallway. I heard them murmuring but caught clearly Ben say with a laugh, “Heck, Dave, why. You stand before me hard and erect, and there is no way I can resist giving you pleasure. I glom on to your manhood, as I suck and stroke you again and again. This time you somehow manage to hold yourself in check, picking me up into your arms, you carry me to your bed. Laying me down softly you begin to explore my body once again. As we share another kiss I can feel your hands caressing my naked body. Your hands find my tits firm, and my nipples hard and erect. Your mouth can’t resist. As usual the gurls and I met and had a good time. The first time Suze andI went out for a smoke I looked around but didn't see the gawker. Thestorefront was an attorney's office on one side and a nail salon on theother. I felt disappointed but not surprised.At the end of the evening we said good night and I walked quickly back tomy car but I lit a cigarette and lingered for a moment, and in a waymorethan a tiny bit disappointed. As I exhaled I heard a man's voice"You look beautiful tonight!"I. Oh how I used to think about killing myself.How I used to plan every aspect of how I would be found hanging from atree in my main tormentors back garden. But those feeling were gone. Inow had feelings of love, hope and joy."No. I don't want to kill myself. I was shocked what my Mum said,especially the bit about her accepting me if I did want to be a girl." Have you ever wanted to kill yourself?"Why did she have to ask that question? Should I tell her the truth, ordeny like mad. If I deny.