I am unable to control the urge went down and masturbated.Two days after our family and her family planned a trip to Tirupati and left from home in Ta...a Sumo she was in middle and I was sitting back during the full journey we were smooching and pressing.We were trying to keep our body not have any feelings since we are traveling to a religious place but lust overcame us.I made an Idea by not going to Thirupathi temple and tried staying in the room saying I am feeling a vomiting illness due to. I wanted all the crap that I had endured for the last year to come to an end. I wanted to start living the rest of my life.I couldn't help myself. I was on pins and needles just waiting for the results of the infamous test. I was at the point where I didn't care what the results turned out to be. In my mind, there was no issue about my wife's conduct. It no longer was of any concern to me. I kept coming back to the simple fact that I wanted my release from this prison of a marriage that I had. She is unmarried and stays alone. She is not working and stays in her house. I had spoken to her many times and was attracted to her grin. She is not too young, I think she is about 40, but she is very mod, wears tights and short tops. She has short hairs with firm breasts. I was attracted to her when I had gone to her house one night to tell something, she was wearing shorts and had tied a shirt around her bra. Let me come to the incident straight away.That day our apartment security had not. It is possible that you or you and Becca, both, are part of our spiritual family. I don’t know yet. We may never know.’ The discussion moved to the idea of spiritual families. I explained that we travel in groups and that most of our karma stays within the group. I pointed out that we have positive as well as negative karma. I explained that we are generally much more aware of our negative karma even while we usually have more positive than negative karma. I continued saying that the spiritual.