On Monday I took a sick day from work which I rarely did, so there was no questions asked. I went to my doctor and explained my situation and even tho...gh she told me my risk was very limited, I requested THE TEST. She suggested that I get the full spectrum of tests so that my mind would be at ease over all the possibilities.I waited the three days in a relative state of controlled dismay. I didn't get any Emails to my advert and I gave more thought about making another advert looking for. Whenever anyone sees you, it will be crossdressed in a servile manner.The stares, the whispers, the double takes will follow you for the rest of your life. No matter how good you get at make-up, people will always know you are a sissy, a transvestite..that devastating word “fag” will occasionally be cruelly whispered behind your back. You will learn to adjust, but you will never quite be able to switch off completely. There will ways be an element of humiliation. The laughs and derision will. I wanted your baby the first time you were here, but you were afraid of me. I told Mother then, that if I could’ve, I would have had your baby in my belly before William and I married.”“What did she say to that?” I asked as she pulled my boots off, then started pulling on my pants legs. I knew what her mother wanted, I just wanted to see what Darla wanted.“She told me that if I had let you put a baby in my belly, she would have too and we’d have them at the same time. Will you do Mother for me,. Leigh was my very ex-girlfriend and just about the only person still in school who knew my pain fetish - how deep it really went. She dumped me two years ago in a public humiliation that still bugged me. She hadn't forgotten anything. She hit me hard and fast. After the first 10, I was leaning on the desk in front of me, groaning. After the next ten, I was begging her. "Harder, bitch, harder."Finally, I heard the ruler drop and she pushed me on to the floor, "Fuck me, Alex." Beating my ass.