I'm about 5'9, 150 lbs, size 6. I have cocoa brown skin, long black hair and a smile to melt the coldest of hearts. For years I knew my older cousin h...d a crush on me. I think I found out when I was around 17. Other family members would tease me about it and it made me quite uncomfortable. He's 35 so we never hung out much until about a year ago. We'd go shopping, see movies, go to strip clubs, drink and occasionally pop ecstasy pills. Sometimes we would be too wasted to drive home so we would. After a bit, she composed herself, and I offered her a glass of cognac. "Only if you join me," she said. After several glasses, she remarked about how warm the night was, and that she was "glowing" from the liquor. I could see damp areas under her arms, and glistening down her cleavage, and it made me hard. She then said, "Trev...would you think it would be trampy of me if I told you I would like to take my top and shorts off?" I didn't answer her, but stood up and pulled off my own shorts,. I was not expecting this to happen. Maybe my hormones, my ego or just my stupidity got the best of me. But when Allison said the same thing, I just accepted obviously the making out, the naked bodies, the teenage boobs, and the hormones were over and done quicker than I'd imagined.Boy was I wrong.I was in the basement den, had the TV on, and the music was playing softly in the background. I was stretched out on the couch, and I heard a noise. I sat up, looked up the hallway where the stairs. No, we didn't sleep together. I am NOT that kind of girl.Not that I wasnt tempted ....*****Entry 13I think I have a boyfriend.If that sounds weird, it feels weirder. He's cool, but we havent managedto have The Talk yet to actually define what we have.But it feels nice, whatever it is.****Entry 14Something's wrong. I feel horrible. I've got to go back to the lab andget checked out.****Entry 15.I'm crying so hard its hard to write this out. Something has gone wrongwith my transformation, and its.