We all knew they were false, but we needed to get themstraight to help each other. We talked about how hard it was not toshare our real lives with an...one. They, like me, all saw Dr. Davis. Thegeneral opinion was that she was a little weird, but maybe that was dueto her job. I would meet with her once a week, and then we all had agroup session with her once a week. Tammy said that she had once livedin another part of town, but had recently moved here. She said, "I knowwe aren't the only. I would wake in the middle of the night and start to stroke Panek into consciousness and have wild sex with him, no longer satisfied to be the passive party in our couplings. By fucking Panek in the way I did, I was trying to prove to myself that I was the woman that Renaud was shaping me to be.Going without underwear was relatively simple to hide from Panek as we worked different hours but he did find out a couple of times. I simply told him it was for him – he readily believed me mainly. He moved above me and started rubbing my back, giving me one hell of a back massage. I stretched out as I relaxed and suddenly he was on top of me, clicking each of my wrists into some handcuffs that were hiding under his pillows. I was trapped, and unsure of what was going to happen next."Well, since I fulfilled your fantasy it's time for you to satisfy mine. So lie there and do everything I tell you to and you won't get hurt. Do you understand?" Listen," I said as I tried to struggle free. "I. I said that would be great and asked everyone else if they wanted to come to the early service. Mandy was there, so she and Adrian went with Sarah, Misty, Cherry, and me, along with about a half dozen others.After church we went by the student union for donuts, coffee, and newspapers before lunch. Since yesterday was a game and travel day, there wasn’t any practice, so when it was time for the library, a lot of the group went for the study time. I typed up my paper and went over everything else.