Saturday dawned and I was up early as usual. Anne got up about an hr later and went to shower. Just for kicks i flipped on the recorder and watched as...she undressed and and got in and out of the shower. Turning it off before she finished drying and returned to the room, none the wiser. She told me that she and the girls were headed out to a friends to go shopping as soon as she could get them up and showered and would be back around 2PM. I told her I had nothing really planned for the day and. Ever so lightly was the kiss so as to not smudge my lipstick. Patti said, “Tammy these are my friends from the office. This is Ron, Mike and John. They all shook my hand as a man would shake a women’s hand, delicately. I must say Joe and Patti have some very handsome manly men as friends. They all looked like footballers, tall, strong and manly. Joe led us to the playroom downstairs and directly to the bar. He made Vodka Tonic’s that we sipped as we chatted, getting to know one another. Joe. I told him sure and I would like the company. After we sat there talking for about 45 minutes he asked if I would join him for diner. We went out to get in his car and he being a gentelman opened my door for me. It was a small expensive sports car imposable to get in like a lady so as he helped me in he was able to see that I really was a redhead. We had a nice diner and as we were walking back to the car he asked if I would like to go to his place for a night cap before he took me back to the. . . an animal sound to my ears). I really try NOT to think, and am sometimes successful in that, just emptying my mind and ?being?. When I do ?think? and wonder the thoughts are so awful that I must try hard to push them out of my mind. I feel no pain anymore, although I am still unable to move, speak or close my mouth.At some point Mimi, a woman we know who is a tattoo artist and piercer comes to see me along with Debra and Suzanne. She stands looking at me for a while, then says to Debra,.