"The old man's eyes sort of glazed over and he adopted what some call a 'thousand yard stare.' I felt a tingle in my head, almost like my brain had an...itch. I've heard that before you die you life will flash before your eyes. That is the best description of what happened to me at that moment. In a flash I remembered everything. Then he was looking at me again.His eyes were friendlier now."I've been looking for you for a long time, son - someone whose life is more pathetic than mine used to be.". "Theresa started to slump in her chair. That was until she heard Jessica.It made Theresa jump when Jessica said, "No you haven't, Mom." How long have you been listening?" Jeanie asked."I was told to go into my room, not to stop listening," Jessica said to her Aunt as she walked up to her mother. Getting down on her knees, Jessica gave her mother a big hug."Mom, stop worrying. I understand why you are mad at Dad. I wonder if Dad ever knew why his father was so down on women. You said his mother. He took her to ball games. She dragged him to the skating rink. They liked the same kinds of movies, and could spend hours at the library together.When he told me about all this, he finally remembered one incident that I think might be the prime contender for when he began to have sexual thoughts about his daughter.They had been outside raking leaves and pulling weeds and splitting firewood to get ready for winter. It was still hot out and they were both hot and sweaty when they went inside.. He got out and walked over .I was nervous and didn't know what to say. He said " I take it you would like to suck a little cock" I chickened out and said no I don't think so. So fast foward a few weeks and I'm staring at this cock. What am I going to do. The guy is kind of holding up the middle lane so he starts to creep ahead a little. All yhe time strokin it. I speed up a little to keep up with him. I give him a very slight tap of the horn trying to tell him i'm interested. he seems to get.