All of a sudden I became so curious as to what a cock in my mouth would feel like. I didn’t find it dirty (well, not in a negative way) or disgustin.... From then on, whenever I watched porn, I couldn’t keep my eyes off the cocks. It just became my infatuation. All I could think about was having one sliding in and out of my mouth.Since I wasn’t gay and knew this to be very true, no question at all, meeting guys face to face was really difficult. After many uncomfortable encounters, I found what. I hated alcohol though, for the most part, and I didn’t want to leave my room. I just wanted to pass my fist through my TV, except that it was expensive. I settled with taking a pen and stabbing it repeatedly and violently through a binder filled with notes. When I went to the bathroom that night, I wrote in the stall, ‘Why is my life so fucked up?’ That night I just had images in my head of an innocent girl in pain, just wanting love and affection, but then the second that image would pop into. Although we were really busy with our studiesduring the week, we went out partying every weekend. Weboth wanted to find girlfriends, but because there werefar more guys than gals at our school, there was fiercecompetition for pussy. The one Friday night, we went to a rowdy singles bar tochase girls and after hours and hours of trying, wefinally gave up and went to a quiet bar where we couldjust hang out and talk. We both drank more than usualas we talked about our limited sexual experience. We lay down and she puts my hand on her clit, "go in small circles" she said. I put 3 fingers in my mouth and started rubbing her clit slowly. she starts to shift and move her pelvic region round. I start to remember all the porn videos ive seen on Xhamster lol and i start licking her nipples and behind her ears. Sucking on her neck i whisper "i want my tongue inside you" im a horrible whisperer so i had to repeat it like 3 times and it wasnt hot anymore, lol. I spread her legs and i start.