He peaked his head in and said “can we talk?” I said “yeah”. He came in a sat on my bed and started to apologize. “ I am so sorry I just…i...s just been so long since I have touched or kissed a woman, you know that and I just was having a good time with you and just realized how pretty you are Lay”. He thought I was pretty!? “ awe Derrick” I said. “its okay I didn’t care that much it just took me by surprise”. He started to laugh and he said” well you should know you’re a good kisser even if you. There was even plastic on the furniture, though that had been done by Lenny's mom. I was a bit of a slob, but I figured it would be worth toeing the line to be able to stay at my school and maybe even get to see Lenny naked sometimes! I knew I would never have the nerve to hit on him.So the next day after school, while we were waiting for the bus, I told Lenny about my predicament, and asked him if I could move in with him (if it was alright with his dad). “That might be fun,” said Lenny. “Why. I didn’t say a word. I justblew her a kiss and went back up on stage for the lastset.This is going to be interesting, I thought as I tuned up.***I couldn’t wait for the last set to end. I kept lookingover at Rhonda and her husband. Did he know that his wifehad just propositioned me? From the stage, I couldn’ttell.We wrapped up the show a little before 2. Rhonda gave usa standing ovation. In the empty bar, it seemed almostridiculous. And her husband didn’t look too happy. ? A Buddhist monk didn’t have more mind control than Scott did in that moment. Tears streamed steadily down his face but he remained focused on a small, imaginary spot on the ceiling. For the next 20 minutes, he was a receptacle for ashes as he held the now cold piss in his mouth. Piss overflowed his mouth as the ashes displaced the pee and he smelled like the men’s room at The Port Authority bus station. ?Swallow!? Those were Todd’s only instructions. ?Swallow, it all, NOW!? Scott.