'Samuel didn't help me because he was so on edge due to his nerves. Idid all the work but I was happy to do it. Some didn't want to discussit and eith...r hung up the telephone or did not answer my letters.'However, one person did tell me over the phone that it had changed herlife. He used to be an office clerk. Always living alone, was afraid ofwomen and was thinking about committing suicide. However she did tell methat she saved all her money and took a train to Mexico to have theoperation.'She. Meri story “Kamwali ne mujhe sperm machine banaya” ko aapne bohot response diya uske iiye dhanyavaad.To jaise ki maine bataya Asha ne mujhe bed se bandh diya usne mera muth mara.Uske baad usne mere nange photos le liye,Jisse woh mujhe blackmail kar sake.Woh us din mujhe azad kar ke chali gayi aur mai raat bhar sochta raha ki yeh mere sath kya ho gaya,Agar mai gav wapas chale jata toh woh mere photo net par viral kar degi.Mere paas koi chara nahi tha mai puri raat pareshan tha.Dusre din woh aayi. “Well does it say how many winners there are?”I replied in a dream, “Just one.”“Just one?”“Just one,” I repeated, “Ken darling, I think I’ve just become a millionaire.”It took a while to sink in, I’d never been particularly hard up, but suddenly I was rich, not just rich but a multi-millionaire. Ken was far calmer than me and suggested I took a couple of weeks off to sort things out.“I’ll get a temp in,” he said to which I agreed.“But any trips away mister and it’s me who goes with you,. Now having performed the mating rituals we were at that penultimate moment, the moment of intimacy, that moment of lace, silk, sexy scents and foreplay before the man takes the woman and completes her. I have been feeling all frothy and willy-nilly for a while. Those inner demons have been lurking for months, stalking me, but I’ve been unwilling to confront them. It’s a conundrum I’m sure every woman has grappled with? You really, really, “like” him, you even “love him” (small “l”) but you.