"How come you didn't stay there?"She looked at me strangely, obviously picking up on my unsympathetic tone. "Various reasons, apart from Malcolm, but ...robably because I'd had enough. Australia is a great country ... to visit but not to live there, at least for me. I know there are are loads of Brits that emigrate but you'd be surprised at how many return after just a couple of years."I nodded. "Sorry Anita for sounding a bit offish but you sounded as if you didn't want to be here."She smiled.. We've yet to relive that intense moment. Even though I can feel every thrust again, as I close my eyes, I anticipate the next time we will come together. Our anniversary is here. I was hoping you'd surprise me with another toy. It's only an instant before I'm not dreaming and you're finally home. There's a bag with you. I run up and kiss you softly with a big smile on my face. You ask if my bags are packed for the weekend. I nod with anticipation. "When can I open my gift?" Your answer me with,. “Please say something,” I whispered after a second. Part of me still wanted to try denying it, but for whatever reason I just couldn’t say it. I couldn’t say that I didn’t love my lifelong friend like that, even if she was so much older than me and had been forced to be responsible for me since I was younger.It was easy to deny when I was in middle school, because back then I truly just viewed her as my friend and playmate. Sure, I loved her more than anything, but I didn’t want to fuck her. .. Tasted nasty and came close to killing me before it cured me! The worst part was pissing and shitting my pants. Thank God the doctor had a nurse bring me some new fatigues and help clean me up. I was up and mobile but I was still moving slow and – well not thinking totally clearly.I met Linus outside and ask, "Did they give you the same 'cure'?"He laughs, "Hell yes! That was a son of a bitch fix for an even worse problem."I question, "Where's Jennifer?"He answers, "She and Maria are down.