I went to my own funeral. My mother tried to justify my death by telling herself and the other mourners that I had had no business drinking at my age....I was only 18, too young to go to frat parties, too young to be dead.I sat in the back row crying over myself, but I couldn't justify my death the way my mother had. I noticed a really cute guy get up and walk out to go to the bathroom. I thought for half a second about following him and mentally kicked myself. But then I remembered that I was. The women learned to sooth and comfort each other when Magnus was not available. They came to rely on each other’s wisdom, strength, and courage as much as Magnus relied on them both. The benefits to all of them in the years to come were immense.They returned to court that evening. Maude again wore her royal finery. Meg had helped comb her hair and fix her appearance so that she again looked every inch the Royal Princess. They entered the audience chamber together.Her father, the King,. Apne ma ke haath se ghisne laga. Side mein kuch halchal hui to maine mud ke dekha, aur dar ke mare main sunn ho gaya.Meri ma jag gayi thi, aur badi aankhe kar ke mujhe dekh rahi thi. Maine fat se aapne dono hath lund pe rakhe aur lund chhupane ki koshish karne laga. Par fir woh hua jo maine kabhi socha bhi na tha. Mujhe laga ma gussa hogi, mujhe daategi par woh muskura rahi thi.Shant sur mein woh boli, “Koi baat nahi beta, aisa hota hai. Is umar mein sexual excitement hoti hai. Par mujhe bina. Was she mad? Was she coming over to tell me how bad I had been? Oh fuck. I didn’t know whether to shit or go blind. Mrs. Johnson was standing on the other side of the fence right opposite where I was standing. I was too afraid to say anything and just kept pretending to examine the boards on the fence. Then, she quietly called my name. I said hi and started to apologize if I had done anything to make her mad. She laughed and said that the reason she came to talk to me was to apologize too and.