An ex-boyfriend turned out to be a psycho when I dumped him and he blackmailed me into doing stuff I still regret. I felt so trapped and vulnerable, I...didnt think I could turn to anyone. Eventually I got help and got out the crazy situation but its left me with serious trust issues. Sometimes I get scared these things may come back to haunt me and ruin things for me but so far so good! Lets hope it stays that way. Fingers crossed! Jamess story Dreading my 30th birthday Ive become a party. ’ The court erupted in the subtle roar of feigned approving clapping as the Herald bowed low and drifted off to the shadows. Allora, her chin resting heavily upon her long thin fingers, starkly white thanks to the wonderful whitening power of arsenic and a bit of paste to cover the age from view as she sat leaning forward and over one arm of her gilt and bejeweled throne. The position she had been in since this young man had burst into the room. She had remained still as the herald barked out. Fortunately for him, Jen had lots of experience with this.The four of us developed a good rapport. It's often a mistake double dating on a first date. You really can't give the other person your undivided attention. But doubling often eases the awkwardness of not having any idea whether you'll have something to talk about or whether you'll be able to talk comfortably after the introductions.I could tell Rich had nerd leanings, but he had been out in the business world long enough to develop. "What things?" Let's start with you not being hurt." Every girl -- every woman -- knows that having a baby hurts. That is the price we are willing to pay for being loved and having a little one in our arms." I don't mean hurt that way. What will happen to you if you get pregnant and don't have a husband?" I don't care."Softly, Cal stroked her face. "I care." His lips met hers, tenderly. "And what will happen if you are pregnant and have to quit in the middle of the school year? You won't be.