..? asked the Middle eastern producer. "Haven't thought thatfar ahead, but after meeting you guys, I am sure you guys can offer mesome advice."Several...discussions began from that point, discussions about maletalent, talent testing and how the market is flooded with men. Exhaustedat the debate trying to keep up. Mr. loud suit gay guy spoke up, "whileyou are here get Court to bring you buy my studio, I will show youaround the studio and see if I can work you in somehow."Over the next several days. I don’t want to see you anymore, not as a friend or especially not as a lover.”I knew she’d reject me again, she always does but hearing her say I couldn’t be around her anymore made my heart ache sending waves of anxiety through my chest. Tears welled in my eyes as I imagined a world where I couldn’t even be her lackey. I knew this was a mistake but I know that every time and I just can’t stop. I would do anything to make this feeling of rejection stop. I tried to find words that would let me. "I was amused, it was almost the first time Jan had admitted to having any fantasy's - she didn't need them she said, or perhaps she just felt she didn't want to upset me. Me - sometimes I did fantasize about the hairdresser - Jill was a drink on a stick, but I didn't really want Jan to know that I thought that way. I would have loved to bed Jill, but well, relaxed marriage or not I had never had the chance. I didn't think Jill would reciprocate my lust anyway. In fact Jan does my hair; it was. Fuddi chooste-chooste mein uski gaand mein ungal bhi de raha tha aur kafi kafi uski tummy ke hole mein bhi tongue daal deta woh itni garam ho chuki thi ki uchal-uchal apni fuddi mere muh ke ander daalne lagi aur mere ser ko jor se fuddi mein dabane lagi.Meine kabhi jada fuddi nai lick ki thi par uss din jada drink karne ki wajah se mein uski fuddi ka poora maza le raha tha baki mujhe yeh toh pata nai ki woh paani kitni baar chorh chuki thi par fuddi ka uss din pehli bar swad itna mast laga..