But as it went on it became more about abandoning herself, abdicating responsibilities, letting someone else making the decisions and just obeying, pu...e and simple obedience. Of course there was a strong element of naughtiness in all this, going against the flow, doing something secret you would never dare to speak about to someone that was not on the know. That had excited her straight away, still did. She was a strong independent person, at least that is what people would say of her and she. How lovely!Drowning was no big deal, we had done most of the steps countless times before. We made our lunch, hooked up the trailer and drove out to the Lynnhaven boat ramps, launched "Miss D", and went out to one of the sandbars that didn't have anyone else nearby. That was harder than it sounds. Chesapeake Bay is huge, but it is surrounded by cities full of guys who think they can fish.We took a couple of hours to stop and anchor, fish some, then move on before we found a good spot with no. “We can go to the study hall downstairs if its easier for you. But it’s three flights of stairs, Dude. You up to that?”“Stairs are fine,” I answered. “I did at least two flights on Tuesday, with no discomfort.”That was awkward. If only in my mind.“Whatever. If you…” I interrupted her.“You’re right about it being quieter,” I said. “Let’s go to your place.”“Cool,” she replied. And I think I saw her wink when she said that.We walked together across the campus, talking about the class, and making. I didn't notice it growing and shrinking throughout the dayanymore. I could see the bulge of the nub in my panties when I lookedin the mirror. I could also see the word "cunt" in the mirror when Ispun around.I felt helpless and vulnerable. My eyes began to water. Jen came overwith some tissues and handed them to me. I started to ball. I don'tknow what came over me. I was sad. I was emotional. I couldn't helpmyself. It wasn't like I didn't want to do it. That was there in theback of.