The film began to flicker. It showed the naked grinning white-skinned man sitting on a bed, a shapely woman using her mouth greedily on his long, thic... prick... Brenda wanted to be sick, she wanted to vanish through the floor and never return... the film showed all too clearly that the woman who was cock- sucking the man so avidly was none other than herself... When the film had run its course, in silence from the three, it had shown her with various men at that vile party last night, doing all. It was almost opaque. Some drops of semen were peeking outside of it. “Dear lord,” I said comically.“You have no idea how good that felt,” Dave said in a satisfied voice, “Damn. I just had so much fun. One of the biggest loads of my life.”“Glad I could bring that about,” I said, half honestly and half sarcastically. I tried to sit on the bed but felt a horrible stinging in my ass. Fuck, I thought, hoping that nothing was wrong but expecting the worst. I lied facedown on the bed, not sure. I just wanted it to all go away and decided the best way to get it to go was to not talk about anything dealing with Joyie.I also broke up with Brad, which was stupid, but at the time I didn't want anyone else close to me that I might lose. I even pushed Dad and Mom away as far as I could. In short, I became a brat and pushed everyone to their last button.One Saturday morning, three weeks after Joyie's death, I heard rain tapping at the window. My head felt too heavy to be lifted off the. " Good girl, honey." Amanda encouraged. "So now you can close your eyes and let yourself sink into a deep sleep, a sleep where you are all warm and safe where all you can hear is my voice speaking the truth."Even as Katie's eyelids fluttered Amanda was sliding around to sit beside her, an arm protectively around the young girls shoulder and with her other she gently brushed the girls blonde hair behind her ear.With her glossy red lips mere inches from Katie's ear, her perfume filling the young.