My thoughts about Milli was broken by the voice of my teacher. The teacher exclaimed,“Excellent! Your partners would be comfortable getting naked in...front of you. And you also will be comfortable seeing them naked. So, your next project is making a painting themed on NUDITY where the model will be your partner. To avoid any issues, it’s optional to paint their face.”I was completely SHOCKED! What was happening!!! From objects directly to NUDITY! I was confirming with my ears, “Did you listen to. It's forthe best. I'm happy the way I am. It's as if I was always meant to beher--meant to be Willow. Me. Maybe this is my calling. And there'ssomething else too." Something else?" I uttered haltingly."Yeah. Me and Tara... You see, now that she's got her marbles back, weget along really well. She's this wonderful, sweet person who'severything I'd ever want in a girlfriend, a-and if I'm not totallymistaken, she might like me back. I don't know if we'll work out or notin the end, but I want to. She has always wanted to do a cross country travel but never had the money to do it so she was very happy that i asked her if she would like to comeas our trip went on, we got lots of good pictures and movies, got lots of shopping & great foods too. Arriving In Arizona the Grand Canyon is about a 30 mind drive from the RV park. heading out after we had a nice breakfast, arriving at the grand canyon, taking pics & movies, then a horse ride into the Canyon was very enjoyable for us botharound. Why? Fear. Because saying it out loud would confirm that these feelings were real, and not a fantasy. I mean, I was married and happy. He was, too. To go on this path would be stupid.The problem with trying to ignore feelings is that they often accumulate, and when it overflows, you can’t control it anymore. Within six months, my feelings for him were so intense that it affected my personal life. One day, I couldn’t stand it and confessed my feelings to him, not hoping for something, but only.