I never answered I really wasn't sure about that one and I don't want to say no but I wasn't sure I would be comfortable with it so I was just silent...."Before we head out I think we should hit the bathrooms, in the bookstore." he commented. We went into the bookstore. On the way to the bathroom he found the sexuality section. He stopped. “I want you to kneel in front of me I am sure there is a book on the bottom shelf you need look at closer.” he suggested.I got down on my knees as asked, not a. "You've got toget yourself dressed for the rest of this trip."My mind was racing. I thought this was an initiation thing, a one timeevent, but it looked like I'd walked into a situation I wasn't gettingout of soon. But did I really want to? Whenever I thought about thenight before I'd immediately start getting excited, the images flashedback again now."Hmm, Brian said you were into this," Theresa laughed, eying my risingdressing gown, "they usually freak out when he gets me to come up. I said it's lovely to see you for a change Nick, and asked what brings him by? I pour him a cup of coffee as He replied saying, it has been a real long time and I've really been missing you, it's now my exam time and I got three weeks study leave and as my first exam is only in two days time I thought I would come and see how you doing. I replied it's really wonderful to see again and I'm really glad you stopped by to say hello. We chatted for a short while catching up and as we finished our. Now, of course, I couldn't even subvocalize, even form my thoughts into coherent words. I had to keep everything below that threshold, to keep it out of my constant companion's awareness.I was even embarrassed about the reason I couldn't talk to Susan about what I had in mind. Mainly it was because I was pretty sure it was one of those half-baked ideas I sometimes had that never came to fruition. I could well recall too many of those from my past, which I'd been foolish enough to speak about.