Her nose was bouncing against my pubic hair, but I didn’t want to think what the goo was which I could feel on her chin as it touched my balls. I tr...ed to politely caress her curls to make it easier for her to work her trade. These situations were always difficult, because I tried to last as long as possible, but she on the other hand had had a long day and lots of eager fans were still waiting for their turn in the line outside.“Oh God, my balls are so full,” I said, and my words caused some. .. who would believe that this person was me? And laterof course... I got into playing around with it... going this way andthat as a man, then a woman. It got to the point where... it seemed tobe taking over my life. It seemed my only pleasure.So I stopped it for a time. Then came my teens and my lack of a sociallife, forced me to call on this again to create the illusion that I wasreally hot shit. People would see babes leaving my room and talk ofwhat a stud I was. Of course in the end I. " "ok see you then!!" click! i get ready and as i iam just getting out of the shower i hear the door bell."HANG ONNN!!!" i yell DiNg...DoNg it goess off again " damn it!" i put on atowel hoping he wont think im not home and i rush to the door. "hey dan sorry i just got out of the shower!" " i don't mind at all." he syas and i catch him steel a qiuk glance at me. "well i had better get dressed." i say "you wanna go swimming?, we just cleaned the pool" i offer "sure,..Hey wheres. I knew I liked being girly but I really thought all teen age boys were like me. Always being a pretty-boy girls always came my way but they all end the same I get hurt because just like a girl I lack self esteem and I'm not controlling enough. Also I lack the testosterone to compete with other Men and now that older and I realized that I'm terrified of women. And eventhough Ive had some gay experiments I thought I was straight Men were not that attractive too me, until I was incarcerated for a.