Two more hours slipped away, intently watching Merrill's covered form closely before Kate finally nodded off her self, listening to Merrill's light sn...ring. It was several hours later when Kate was roused from slumber by Merrill's soft hand brushing her cheek."Kate, hey Kate! Are there any bedpans in this dump?" Yep sure, hang on I'll get you one" Kate answered dreamily.Kate rolled out of the bedside chair, switched on the light and made her way to the cupboard at the back of the room."Only. "I was in a battle with myself. I was trying to decide how much time should pass before I became involved with another woman. No one else thought it was too soon but me. You had everyone in my family's approval. I guess it all combined to wear me down." Is that what happened. You just got worn down?" She didn't look happy."No. I probably didn't express myself properly. I've had feelings for you for some time. I wasn't exactly denying them, I was just shelving them for later. I kept trying to. Did they know that I had recently removed the bra and panty set I was clutching so tightly, and that I was naked under my dress? What would they think of me if they knew I was headed to a man's room, a man I had just met, and I was going to strip naked, and wait for him to come and fuck me with his huge black cock while my husband watched? If this young woman knew, would she be jealous or appalled? Or both? My mind was racing in all directions. I entered the suite to find two double beds, a. Then we had sex. I simply could not resist it. It felt like I also loved her, at least while she was in my arms, or her tounge in my mouth, or my cock in her pussy. And afterwards I simply could not go thru with it, so I thought to myself, it can wait, next time I will. It had happened every time. In the end I had to use rage to make it happen. I stumbled on an opportunity when she was accusing me of not being honest, of lying to her, - which of course I was, but rage is part of my self-defence.