. whom I actually do still like, even if he’s gone off sex due to drinking too much and just can’t manage it. I don’t consider it cheating if he...can’t or won’t provide what I need. That’s his lookout not mine; which is more like the way men think. All I do is make sure I don’t get caught.”“Oh, right. I did wonder, but was kind of scared to ask in case it stopped.”“That’s OK, you can ask me or Doreen I guess. But not the others,” she nodded. “Karen does it because she needs it but isn’t getting. After two days of our visit that girl came to our house on that time we was going out for shopping she also came with us for shopping while going in car I was looking her only and she was giving me smile and used to bend her head down, Then I taught to seduce her fuck her any cost after we returned home all were busy in their works I and that girl were talking some stuff and she asked me about girlfriend so I told yes I have one so she got disappointed and said k so I asked her what happened. .. bastard!She first attracted me while she bathed in the sun, smothered in coconut smelling tanning lotion and very little else. Up till that moment, my experience with members of the opposite sex was through my 19 inch screen and some web-sites with strange names.My shadow fell across her golden coloured torso and face. I will never forget the first words she spoke to me..."You're blocking my sun you idiot". It was music to my ears. "Move you dipshit!" She sat up as she shouted at me and I. I could feel them like indeterminate points of light. There is nothing I can say to heal this. I am broken now, as are you. With her death, we died as the words died on our lips. There is nothing we could say, if we could say anything to fill the hole in our minds and hearts that Her death digs in us. Even as I speak now, I bring no hope, no kind words to act as a salve on your ears. We are lost, now. Our pens are now alien and foreign creatures forever to sleep on dusty parchment. But while.