And I could feel a flush rushing over my body,That’s quite normal, your body will change as you will not receive any male hormones or testosterone,...as yours is now on that tray in front of you, unless you have regular injections, your penis will atrophy due to none use, it will in time shrink to almost nothing, Ruth explained,No more half hard on's, no more coming, and hardly a dirty thought from now on,You will go right off woman, you may start to fancy men, and you certainly will not be. Our first few visits were purely platonic even though the sexual tension was so high you could cut it with the proverbial knife. This had been our agreement, meet in large cities where everything we did would be in public. Separate rooms of course, and we even agreed to separate floors. There are after all, crazy people on the internet and neither of us wanted to be a headline in our hometown newspaper. Our other interactions though were far from platonic. I think some of our writings could. The shortest one asked, "Want something to eat besides cock Peggy?" I gave him a look that showed him I was displeased with his question. Another man said, "Shit Frank, you ain't got any feelings. Let the poor girl wake up and eat some real food. I swear I think all you got on the brain is having your cock sucked." She sucked you off more than anyone of us, give her a fucking a break." Alex grabbed my arm and helped me walk slowly to the kitchen. We went through the Den; I looked at the giant. I tried to take her in my arms for comfort, but she pushed me away."Not now, Jackie," she said in a tremulous voice. "Just leave me be for a little while, OK? I need to be alone right now," she added when I just stood there feeling stupid and useless. I left the room, and behind me I could hear the lock on the door click.The rest of the afternoon went by, and all evening. I had no idea what to do. It was our bedroom she'd locked me out of, and as the hour grew later and later I finally dossed.