My guilt turned to regret, regret that he didn't seem to enjoy touching my body. Little did I suspect that he was controlling himself because he knew ...hat I was in pain. I was planning to tell him that I was ready to get out of bed and resume caring for myself when he showed me just how much I turned him on.Billy had always came to me just before he went to sleep for the night to give me a final massage. Massages with the ointment relaxed my muscles and helped me sleep, at least it had until. She took the envelopes from me to store them in her fireproof safe. I kissed everybody and went to my room. I sat on the bed and visualized Darla Anne returning in the cab. I embraced her as she got out, then David got into the cab and left. I waved, knowing that it might be a long time before I saw him again. I walked back into the house and went to my room. It was getting late, so I performed my nightly rituals and prepared for bed. I had climbed into bed and had just finished reading one of. I said hell why don't we jack off together then no one has to be shy about what happened. He thought it was a great idea so off came my trunks and away went his towel. My cock is bigger than his, but not by much. I laid beside him on the bed and we started to stroke. Within a minute or so, I was stroking him and him me. Then he said, you have sucked a cock when you were young, I never have, maybe I could try sucking you a bit, I was so horny I agreed right away but I said we would suck each. The idea oftaking off my makeup or dressing as a boy excited me. In the same way asit had been both exhilarating, exciting and humiliating for me to go outdressed as a girl for the first time, so it also felt exciting to go outone day without my nail extensions and only wearing nail polish and onanother day without false eyelashes and on another without lipstick..Then there was the day I bought a pair of boy's boxer shorts. It turnedout they were too big for me, and kept falling down, so I.