”Lionel thought that she did not know what she was asking, and that she attributed much more experience to him than he really had. Certainly, some w...men had ‘pleased him.’ But they were filles de la rue. His experience with ladies was precisely equal to her experience with men. It was the same experience.“What I have experienced with women has no application. They were bought conveniences. I would never treat you like that!”“Did you hurt them?”“God, no!” He remembered Marie’s stories of men who. ... But I knew I couldn’t do to you what I really wanted to do ... So I just kissed you.”“When you didn’t pull away, and then actually kissed me back, it was like a dream come true, I wanted you so badly, but I was afraid to tell you," he continued.As he spoke our bodies pressed together under the water, my heart beating so wildly over his words. Our faces cheek to cheek as his continued to whisper in my ear about how he always fantasized about me and now his wish had come true. All these. I sat in a provocative manner, in my panties, one size smaller for a girl my size, were on display, pulled tight around my crotch, my shaved pubis making for the 'Camel-toe', I displayed, and daddy could not fail to see, nor the self lubricating I was doing, the darkening circle spreading on the white cotton crotch, I was displaying, telling him I wet and in a state of sexual arousal.It was an intentional display of my womanhood, I needed daddy's reaction to tell me I was arousing him, I was. We’ll just think about it all.”So we did. It was life as usual for a while. Work, chores and all the things we do keeping the train on the track, took up our time. Our thoughts, though, were not always on the task at hand. Mine kept returning to that talk we had.I’d never played around with another guy. They say most boys monkey around with a friend when they hit puberty, but I never did. That was always something I swore I’d never do. I’d heard enough gay jokes to make me shy away from even.