I'm going to lay some more flooring," and started moving the chipboard sheets into the area that would be the spare bedroom.Sarah didn't move and I as...ed her if the weather had calmed down a bit. She said that it had and that she would set off in a few minutes.When she took my cup and said goodbye, she actually smiled. It was a warm smile and such a contrast to her normal scowl that I actually thought she looked desirable.I worked on for another hour or so and then went down to the kitchen to. The anticipation was killing as I stood in a sea of people waiting to get in. A man up ahead was directing people to two lines. With the VIP tickets I scored from work I got to go to the shorter of the lines. As I stood there waiting people were chit chatting, I felt odd because I was surround by people that were in groups of friends and couples. Standing there by myself, someone exclaimed my name in a high pitched excited voice. I whipped around. There stood Ash, she was taller than most girls. I wish to hell I could take it back, do something different. I wish I could make myself UN-stupid and UN-reckless, but I can't. I can't change the past, and nothing I do will ever make up for it, even though supposedly that's what this court order is supposed to accomplish. I fucked up. I did wrong. I'm helpless to actually FIX anything, and now I have to live with the consequences."With that, Nick dropped his hands onto his knees and used them to push himself off the bench. He stood and paced. My mom’s gaze turns back to me. “I hope you don’t have a problem with that.”“Of course not, why would I have a problem with it? I just didn’t realize you were… gay,” I say as I take a bite of the mouth-watering casserole. The combination of cheese, vegetables, chicken with crushed Ritz crackers on top is too much for my senses. It takes me into cloud nine. This has to be my favorite dish of all time. There’s just something about the way the cheese melts onto the veggies and chicken that makes.