I started out intensely curious on Sunday and Monday, spent Tuesday and Wednesday trying to put it out of my mind and concentrate on work before my bo...s got on my case, and by Thursday and Friday could hardly think of anything else. I'm not sure how I got through the days. I made arrangements to have my papers stopped and my mail held and paid a couple of bills in advance, which really emptied my bank account, although there'd be an automatic deposit on pay day in the middle of my vacation. Once there, I felt very vulnerable indeed. When the first stroke arrived I honestly couldn't believe it. I had never known such pain. After the second, I was sure the cuts were so deep that I must be bleeding. I really didn't think I'd be able to take any more. Of course I did - there wasn't an option to call halt - and after the most agonising minute or so of my life it was over - thank G**. Later that evening, when the horrible initial sharpness of the pain had died down, my bottom moved. "Don't be shy, Ben. My wife also likes you. You can kiss my wife as much as you like."When he didn't make a move he told his wife, "He's shy, Peggy. Be nice to him. He's your best friend's son."Peggy was too excited to bother about Jock or his filming. She took Ben into her arms and gently licked his young full lips for a while. "I like you, Ben. I like you very much." Thank you, aunty." Please don't tell your mom, Ben. Your mom is my best friend. She mustn't know about this."Ben nodded. She. She remained mylover, friend, guardian and special aunt right up untilI was almost 21 and then likely due to her being overweight, she suddenly passed away from a heart attack.She was a wonderful person and I still miss her verymuch. Any wonder why I have such admiration for olderwomen.After her death, I became involved with a number ofwomen, some in their early 30’s, others as old as 56.Then about a year ago, I was hired to look after acomplex that was built especially for single women.