..got so excited by all that and I couldn't help it, I couldn't even control myself, not even for five lousy minutes. I"m such a loser!"With that, he ...rupted in tears again as I held him close until the storm subsided."Am I that pathetic?" he asked me."No bro, you're not pathetic, you're well, inexperienced. I've heard that it happens to lots of guys, but if the girl is cool with him and understanding, they can usually try again after a bit. I take it understanding wasn't in the cards?" Nope,". Eventually he folded up the yellowing scrap and tucked it back inside his satchel. Sometimes the urge came to ball it up and hurl it out the window but he never did. That wouldn’t solve anything, even though it might be suitable. A useless end for a useless note. Of course, he had already figured out why the note had nothing. Those final words, that message lost to the final moments, had all been a change of heart brought by the nearness of death. Father had never really meant to tell Eldrian. I’ve been working all week on this presentation that I have to give tomorrow morning, and I lost it. It’s just gone man.’ ‘Ok… Don’t get your knickers in a twist. What did you do?’ ‘Nothing! I swear. I didn’t do anything.’ ‘Uh huh. I figured that’s what you’d say. Ok, tell me EXACTLY what happened.’ ‘I was working away, I went to save my file an I gets this error message see, and…’ ‘Wait wait wait. You got an error message? What did the message say?’ ‘I dunno. I didn’t read it.’ ‘You didn’t. . She could feel his sweet surprise in her belly and they were both happy. She hadn't planned it this way, but it happened. She smiled big for Bill and said, "I'm glad I was able to do that for you. I love to make you happy, and I love to make my special love to you with my mouth. Soon we will do it for each other, OK?"Bill grabbed me and held me tighter than he ever did. "Soon, soon", he said. "I want to have you that way too. That was the most exciting thing that ever happened to me, and you.