I made sure that all of us stayed proficient in the self defense training and the offensive skills I had taught them. The strategy was that in an emer...ency we could go as a response team to one of the colleges.I planned to expand the concept to include the North six and any of the administrators who wanted the complete training security module. That module would include the defense training, weapons training, the nationwide carry permits and identification badges of the security division.In. Nobody would ever know if the dessert really was appropriate for a winter wedding.I had stayed in our home town mostly because of Rachel. I had far better job offers in other areas, among them one particularly nice offer in San Francisco. It had really hurt to turn that one down but Rachel had insisted to stay around her family and I had relented. Now I was free to check if the job was still available. I felt almost relieved, after the horror I had to endure I felt a sense of freedom. New. "She reached over and touched it with her fingertips. I couldn't believe that she was nineteen and didn't know anything about a guy's penis. I thought this must be the first penis she had seen and had a chance to feel. I asked her if she had seen or felt a penis before. She said, "I've seen Tom's penis, and he is bigger than yours. It also has a funny pointed end."I said in self-defense, "Did Tom have an erection? Remember, Tom is nine years older than me, and I hope mine will grow some more. . Just before darkness covered me, again, Rebecca's face appeared above me. She'd been weeping, and I wanted to comfort her, but couldn't lift my arms to brush her face, to give her peace.I am certain I felt the chopper set down. The telltale bump of the ground is another clear memory. As certain as I was that we were back on the ground, I was equally certain I could do nothing about it; not even open my eyes.It was during that period of partial consciousness that I was aware of someone holding.